Dealing w/recent events, & confidence (2 of 2)

I am a bit down today.

You know or can figure out why.  [if not, please see previous post from today.]

So, I’m looking at my old FB albums of Lailah and using those memories of our times together, to cheer me up.

So, I can progressively see Lailah growing up, as I move from one album to another. [I am just OCD enough that for my FB albums, I put the date in the album title]. I’m looking at pics from last summer – she looks the same then, as she does now. Just a little pip squeak. Still a little monkey.

But, and, that is a big but, I can see her growing up in my mind’s eye – how she was last year, at the neighborhood “water” park, and how she was just a few days ago at the same place, running around, screaming in delight.

Having so much fun, running thru the various water spouts.

I’m looking at her pics from when she first started playing soccer 11 months ago, and her, being so tentative, not knowing what to do or simply not being sure of herself. I can’t wait until I’m able to watch her, a month from now, to see her now, with the amount of self confidence she now has, as compared to last August.

Talking about self-confidence:

I’ve been sharing my thoughts off and on, with all of you, since early 2009, starting with some long winded postings about what was happening with my career at Unisys, during that short period when I first became aware I was about to be laid off in a few months time.

And, these postings of my inner-most thoughts and feelings continued, and greatly expanded, when I created my WordPress blog/website in late 2012, sharing them on that website, as well as here on FB.

I know I don’t have a huge following – I see a couple/few “likes” very now and then. I know who follows me, who enjoys reading my stuff.

[And, I fully realize, a lot of my FB friends don’t understand why I share these thoughts, these feelings, in such a public forum – I get that. Everyone is different. Some people like to read, some like to write, some people are very private, and some, like myself, don’t care any longer if people think that I’m odd (or a nut-job). I write for my own enjoyment, and, perhaps, to enlighten at least one other person in my life, to make them think.]

But, today marks a special moment for me.

One of you “shared” my post (about good vs. evil) this morning to their friends. If memory serves, I believe this is the first time that that has occurred, with my writings.

Thank you, Gary Zielinski. Doing that, has boosted my self-confidence in more ways than you will ever know. [I’m hoping you shared on purpose and that it wasn’t an accident –😉]

It has truly brightened my day. Thank you, my friend.

Love always, to each and every one of you,

Brian.